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Hi,
long time no see.
By the way... i've changed a lot.
it's hard to tell what's happened in my life recently, because there are sooooo much things has happened and it has changed my life, a lot.

first, about my...uhm... love story.
omg, in this age i felt so clumsy if talk about this kind of topic. but, i wanna confess that i was in love with one boy. but, sadly i said, that he is not the one for me and vice versa. we are just not belong to each other. together, just to hurt each other is a big no no. since he was a modern human too, it's not polite if i talked about our relationship in here. but, i don't want to regret anything. past is a past.

second, about... friendship.
i feel so... no word fits this kind of feeling. there is something in this world that can't be fixed, and so does this thing...
god, please lead me :(
yeah, i confess that i am not as happy as yesterday, when everything was okay.
God :(

third, about my dream.
okay, i know it's so far-far away from my big dream, but by joining Remaja Ceria... i hope.. yeah, the door open wider for me. Amin.

ah, sadly i said that my heart feel so bad.
if i can, i would like to run away...and forget about this kind of pain for a while...